My Thoughts Exactly

This may be the saddest part of my whole college life. I just received our grade in tax. I tell you, it's very depressing. I failed, I have not met the passing grade. I prayed a lot and hoped that I would meet the quota. But, I guess God answers "no" to our prayers sometimes. You might think that God doesn't care for me. But I deserve it. I deserve 5.0 and accepting it is harder than I have ever thought. May be it's a lesson that God wants me to learn. I've been too messy with my studies this semester and I have been reckless. And my semester's resolution? I've always told this to myself and I guess, anyone, who has failed, would say this to themselves (I have said this in one of my blogs)... "I'll do better next time..." And I swear this 'next time' will really be better. I have learned my lessons and I have pondered on it. *teary-eyed and sniff*

These past few days, I was anxious about failing one of my subjects. I was bothered on what would be the end-result after all those 'burning of night candles' on the last two months of the semester. I am afraid of bringing home a grade of 5.0. I've been praying that none of my subjects will fail. I am hoping. Hoping that everything will end up good. Planning that after this, I'll be having a fresh new start for the next semester. Doing those things that I should have done.

*Sigh*  The semester's almost over and I still have two more exams to burn my night candle on. This semester is a clutter and I hope that the next one will be alright just like the past terms.